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the past follows me

i remember

mother

wheedling me about how

closet eating wasn’t

healthy,

but she didn’t have to go

through the trauma

of being shamed for eating

at lunch in middle school;

i still don’t feel comfortable eating

around others

unless they are eating,

too—

maybe closet eating isn’t healthy,

but i don’t like people watching

or staring;

makes me feel uncomfortable

to be judged for doing something we all need to do

in order to survive—

the laughter that poured from their lips

as i felt awkward beyond belief

still rings in my ears,

i am told to leave the past behind me;

but they don’t understand

it follows

no matter how much i try to forget.

Depression

Lost For Words